I was her last summer. Then I succumbed to the sexual energy of my ex and we spent August and September dating again, but then I realized that I had moved through what I needed to in my miserable summer, and had my rebound that I needed as well. Now, I’m not seeking that either. I’m just not Break-up Girl anymore.
We saw one of my favorite performers last night. My workout partner bought tickets and I owe her money for them. I should have bought the opener’s flashdrive, as she was excellent, but I’ll probably just see if Panda has her albums after I get my Mac repaired. Shit, I need to drop that off today too.
Anyway, the headliner’s sets were obviously in the stylings of Break-up Girl, so it wasn’t as peppy as I had expected. It’s funny that one of the things that I kept thinking over and over is that her ass is as nice as my ex’es. I turned around after a few songs and told my workout partner that she really has an incredible ass and she said, “I noticed that as soon as she turned around to switch guitars and knew that you were probably VERY happy.” Hahahaha! The other thing was the namesake of this blog, and that is that she is still very much entrenched in her loss of a perspective marriage and her ex-bf. So, her show had that “getting through being without you” feel and was pretty sombre and included sad songs and ballads as well. I would have alternated songs, but I don’t perform, so. It was still fun. I LOVE live music.
I’m sooooo glad to be where I am. I know that Thursday will be weird at times, but honestly, I can just be me, and I think that really I have been comfortable with that for most of my life. The last thing that I had to do to embrace being ok was to come out, and I think that I may tell some of that story in my church when I give the sermon in July. I’m not sure, but I will make it personal.
I have that Boot Camp again in about an hour and a half, and then my son plays basketball–it’s his second to last game. I have to go to the university to pick up the gold standard test of ability (used for adults) and a projective kit that I like. She has had some trauma, and doesn’t have a car, so today is also some case management as I have to transport her to a library because the main building is closed. I will be fried after the eval, but I also have to see my young male client at his house and get new sessions scheduled for him now that he has started sports.
Then my new friend that I have through one of my best friends who is finishing school in CA, is having me at her parents’ house for dinner and I finally get to meet her girlfriend. My friend said that she is very sweet, so I can’t wait to hear their lovestory. Tonight we are playing quiz. We are meeting the engineer there too. I’m so not into her, but she is smart, so we will probably win again. I’ll text a few more friends if my workout partner and her out-of-town company do not come to quiz. It’s fun to win.
It’s only fun to meet good girls. I want to go on a date. I should join a new meetup. I may do that, but don’t think that now is the right time, because I’d be frustrated that their times don’t work with my schedule. It may just have to be that late spring is the time for new girls. I don’t think that one will drop out of the sky.